First Snow Fall

With the first snowfall, a snow-white beauty. An anxiety over the end. Excitement over a new beginning. A season of darkness, fires, and new gifts. What more could I ask for as I lay bleeding in the morning snow. The reddish slush around me will give life to a new snowman.

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Suicide Fucking Sucks!!!

My youngest daughter is suicidal. I’m managing it well, and I think she’ll be all right, but this is easily the worst time in my entire life, likely hers too. It makes me wonder about how I spend my time though. Is there any value in watching TV or porn or whatever other bullshit ways…

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My Only Niece

My only niece, who was wonderful, kind, caring, good to her family, and loved horses, took her own life recently. It’s the only death I’ve experienced that has impacted my life in a very negative way. Other people I cared about have died, but they were older, and I was prepared for it. Suicide isn’t…

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Juggling Expired Yogurt

Yesterday, I had this magically funny moment where I was with my daughter, and I was juggling three small containers of expired yogurt. One of the containers had slightly opened a bit. My daughter was nervous that the expired yogurt would open or splash everywhere if I dropped it, but we shared a moment that…

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Not until May the 8th

On May the 8th, I will be everything I want Everything I know I can be. I’ll be wiser, strong More confident. I’ll be nicer to people Less reactive. I’ll be smarter I’ll be everything I ever wanted to be. But not until May the 8th.

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Profound Fucking Sadness

What man needs to cry? Maybe all men need to cry. I’m going through couching right now, a type of couching that looks inward. It can be a bit like therapy at times. Other times, it can look like business coaching. My coach tore open an old wound. The years of stress and unexplained anxiety…

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Transformational Writing

At the Ottawa Writer’s Fest, I had the pleasure of hearing Cherie Dimaline speak. She restored my faith in fiction, saying that it can be transformational. I take that to mean that it really changes a person in a core way. It’s not like when you see photos of chocolate then you eat nothing but…

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Punishment vs Reward

Writing should be fun and inspirational, but how do you do it more often. I often think of writing like exercise: It’s something I want to do; It’s something I need to do; It’s something that will benefit me; If I build it into my routine it becomes easier; It’s something I don’t have time…

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Men of Hollywood #poetry

They already have the power. But they still want yours. Give them your innocence, Your body, Everything you are. And when you have nothing left, They will still take more than they ever give.

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Toasted honey sandwich #poetry

The sweetest type of honey drips down that delicious golden brown. The tip of my tongue licks the drop, tastes it. I press my lips to it, spread it open, just a bit. My eyes close, the smell, intoxicating. I slide my tongue inside, licking and tasting every bit of honey inside. A bit drips…

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