The Flowers of Need

Fog enters my lungs, Enters my mind, Leaves my mouth and fills the air around me. Fog stays in my brain, Stays in my cells, Slowing my days. Fog takes away the sadness, Takes away the anxiety, Kills the stress. Fuck fog. I need clarity.

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A Problem

Maybe just with friends Almost never on my own Rarely ever on a work night I need it to relax Just started taking it everyday Using it as a medicine is OK Always needing a bit more Nothing is quite the same And now I have a problem

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Digital Dementia or Landscape Lucidness?

As the pandemic’s third wave is drastically decreasing in my area, people are getting vaccines, and the warm weather is finally upon us, it’s time for a digital break. Too much time watching videos and TV, playing video games, and surfing social media actually causes a bit of temporary dementia in people of all ages….

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So fucking done … almost

I feel like I’m done with life, even though it’s not yet done with me. No, I’m not talking about ending things early. I’m talking about the will to live. These are two very different things. Sometimes I love life, especially when I’m getting high. Right now, I’m not getting high. I’m not really living…

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Mary Jane’s Last Dance

I sit here, under motivated, after another night of over consuming high THC cannabis. I was alone, so I didn’t enjoy the high. The amount that I had made me worried about my mortality and the mortality of those around me. Marijuana makes me way more emotional, even when I’m not on it. I become…

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Dancing With Mary Jane – Part 12 of Through the Gates

Joey is driving out of the city, out of the suburbs, and into the country. He lights up a joint, takes a couple of puffs and hands it to me. While I’m vehemently against smoking and driving, I do have a very good and longstanding relationship with marijuana. While I don’t want to encourage Joey’s…

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No #TV – but for real this time…

I sit quietly in an empty waiting room, waiting for my daughter to finish her therapy session, not wanting to leave and go shopping, just in case I’m needed, just in case she needs to leave. I was recently asked how my life changed after my teenaged niece died. I ponder that even more, in…

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@SHO_Dexter, I’m quitting #TV, but not until your season is over

I’m usually watching TV at this time, but instead I decided to write an entry, and I’ll probably go to bed early – well, early for me, anyway. I’m quitting TV. Yes, it really is like quitting smoking or maybe even heroin. OK, I went too far there; it’s nothing like quitting heroin, but I’m…

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